As a Christian and a human, I’m particularly disheartened with where we’re at as a country. I also loathe the fact that I’m part of the problem.

I’m a white woman of privilege, and while that doesn’t mean my life has been easy or that I don’t work to make ends meet; it DOES means that the color of my skin isn’t one of the challenges I have to overcome on a daily basis.

Over the past week I’ve gotten quiet so I can listen and learn. I pushed my ego and white fragility aside in a way I haven’t done before and sought courage and guidance in prayer.

Colossians 3:12-14 tells us to Clothe ourselves in Compassion, Kindness, Humility, and above all, Love – I’m paraphrasing here, but dang friend, it’s all right there. I keep returning to these two verses whenever my ego or fragility threaten my education and progress. They are everything I need to know.

I don’t have answers, but I know He does. I know the answers can be found in the Word and within the people He’s using to lead us to a better, more enlightened place.

The journey to educate myself, to become a better ally, to learn to be anti-racist, it’s going to take time – a LIFETIME. As a new student, I feel somewhat limited in my ability to help, but there are still tangible things I can do RIGHT NOW. One of them is to offer financial support to local organizations fighting for change.

I founded Kinder Brand to earn a living that allowed me to Spark Joy and Spread Kindness (ie. Donate a portion of every sale to non-profits doing important work). I will continue to support Shepherds College, but I will now also contribute to local organizations fighting for racial justice and equality.

I have a lot of work to do, both personally and professionally. I must step boldly into my desire to spark joy so that I can spread as much kindness as possible. I must find inclusive ways to do this for EVERYONE not just those who can afford to purchase items from my shop. I must trust God’s provision and give generously (time, money, resources) with a glad heart.

As I move forward, I know I will fail. I genuinely have no clue what the “right” way to move forward is. I haven’t found a rule book for how to thoughtfully run a business after the world has been ripped apart. So, I’m going to learn how to accomplish this with you watching. I will stumble and fall, but I will take correction with humility and courage. I will fail-forward – learning from every misstep and working to do better everyday.

Thank you in advance for your grace and kindness.

And for my white readers, I’m also going to share my journey to become a better ally and anti-racist. I have already learned so much this week, but I think the biggest take away is that it’s our responsibility to educate ourselves. We can’t expect to be spoon-fed the lessons, we have to do the work. Use google, enroll in classes, expand and diversify our circles. I want to use this space to share resources and experiences in a non-centering way that allow us to grow and evolve.

Your Partner In Kind,